All alone again Fighting words sharp bullets through my head More self-doubt I'm screaming Running through the thorns that you planted You're looking for something, you're stressing Holes and holes dug by your ego I'm talking up your pony show Just a shallow grave for your lonely shell Staying south of all the hearsay Kicked up dirt still hurts my breathing Blurry vision all the while everything's so crystal clear Laid to rest all chide pretenses Cross your fingers put your lifeline where your mouth is Save your skin from what you are

Looked through the door To young to remember I always thought you came with the house Like the woods we used to run through Lead us to the welcome breathes of suburb life A place inside for you to lay your head next to mine Cutting teeth on the outlines of your ghastly cat eyes Waiting at the windowsill Over the ladder vault the chimney each night And these days you still replay in my mind On reel-to-reels steal tapes unwind Cross our hands these heartstrings intertwine To flashbacks and remembrances we Spun the thread with all you gave me Like a child I'm tying knots Not in doubt but in fear that I forgot The cradle we've been weaving since the start Miss the picture looking for something bigger Our precepts cross out offshore gifts Neglecting true intention My apologies wash colors to grey undermine each line that circles into abstract designs From the depth of your sly cat eyes We see the past and live the future Through the time I thought was pointless Watching you chase life I learned I'm still waiting for mine Rolling with the punches After the jive inside your ring Took a few on the chin Remember your grin Life's shots they feel like rain Each bruise reminds me The world's so small You're right to say no one cares about me at all You prepared me for the fall On reel-to-reels steal tapes unwind Cross our hands these heartstrings intertwine To flashbacks and remembrances we Spun the thread with all you gave me Like a child I'm tying knots Not in doubt but in fear that I forgot The cradle we've been weaving since the start I am aware All my problems are self-inflicted Even now that you're gone You still bring me and guide me along Without a single word said Never felt so loved when you were by my side A small stray feline is what we are Black sheep in the ballpark To the bullseye of the grade Watching life breathe from a distance Out of respect, a lack of faith Just vagabonds lying awake Still here and grateful for another day Doors that line the hallway I'm ever cautious to open your way On reel-to-reels steal tapes unwind Cross our hands these heartstrings intertwine To flashbacks and remembrances we Spun the thread with all you gave me Like a child I'm tying knots Not in doubt but in fear that I forgot The cradle we've been weaving since the start

Struck out again Loosen your grip go out swinging Lost to the same changeup With coaches and parents, the stands in my head Might as well be playing instead Daydreaming in the outfield This is where I belong As the innings go on the games grown up And I'm still in my imagination Gone into overtime The league is always the same Spent years on the D-backs, three on the A's Miss the wholesome scrimmage games we played Hanging in the dugout Cutting baseball seams spitting sunflower seeds Joking with all my buddies At the "I" in team and everything in between These chalk foul lines are outlines of past times gone by Lost in each base slide while your jersey moved on with its life I can see it in your eyes Although it got better You were never happy with me So I learned to be happy with myself I have some sense of direction Not success but a clear cut passion Written on my bones Through the dust your cleats kick up it will always show Inside the batting cage Go showcase that classic swing Your sun scorched mitt of leather Flaunting every letter on your Louisville slugger You'll catch me in the dugout Counting all the foul balls go by Wishing that a pop-fly would fall and Drill that sucker between the eyes Got no court or umpire To tell me otherwise I can run to third without landing a hit Your guess is as good as mine Struck out again Quit sleeping Lost to another curveball Why even bother to swing for the fences? Might as well be playing instead Back to the outfield prison To think about what I've done The innings go on, the game's grown up And I'm still in my imagination I know you can't be beat In this brawl you roped me into A front to war inside myself Projecting problems somewhere else Away from me It won't let go This storm is never blowing over I'll let the winds fill up my sails Lift me over chain link fences I'll prevail Struck out again loosen your grip keep swinging Just keep swinging

I'm counting the years all them I've known you When was the last time that I've seen you? I watched you sing I felt you breathe I saw you slip between the world You left me fallen eyes wide open To watch you soar beyond our height Know I'm the last one left And I'm still scared to death About the way we moved on And the way we forgot Those days that we've spent daydreaming When nothing here is changing Try to hold my head up high and turn the page Maybe someday I'll look at the photographs to keep my mind straight Yesterday our yesterday And I'll keep you all in the back of my head so I can move on Stuck in a daze I'm counting Every time I thought I saw you Running through my life Can't even face your ghost to say how I feel I'll never forget every conversation and the clouds over my head Your words a perfect storm Of drowning waves to cool mists that ease the pain Chased your voice down blocks and streets These second guesses ring out my defeat I always thought that you deserve better Staying friends I hope we'd be together As another lie Stuck here with my head in my hands In the songs of guilt and regret Don't bother catching my breath I'm going nowhere and nowhere's always welcomed me You made me feel like something each day after day I'm sifting sands for a flip of the hourglass We don't have to move on I forgot Those days that we've spent daydreaming When nothing here is changing Try to hold my head up high and turn the page Maybe someday I'll look at the photographs to keep my mind straight Yesterday our yesterday And I'll keep you all in the back of my head so I can move on

Brothers and sisters in arms Don't salute me salute yourselves For leading the charge on this white coat battlefield Protect our homes no matter how far And we're the new recruits so seek out your morale On dove's wings we all fly Our clarity's a tempest rages all our lives We're brazen, bold and green With strength in numbers a flaw in tenacity And as the world becomes our crime scene We're playing chess the pawns are suffering And who's the next to blame? Take this time to breathe Days blend into one big nothing So why do we insist on separating? Call to the Western Front Up to our knees in dirt and mud We were the first to cross no man's land Sarge says it's a scouting op It was midnight and the barbed wire fences stung Gotta be a bit quicker A little more cautious Eyes on the invisible gun We're on the offensive, take cover they're mowing us down We've got a better chance in the trenches Losing sleep from all the lead rain pouring down It's been days, days and weeks The true adversary's my mind They say that our future's uncertain Dust on the wayside Always been the case Go through the motions the fangs of a snake Latching on to veins disguised as newspaper ink Preparing for a flood as we're stranded in this desert Some fighting mirages While some find an oasis somewhere Brothers and sisters in arms Don't salute me salute yourselves For leading the charge on this white coat battlefield Protect our homes no matter how far And we're the new recruits so seek out your morale On dove's wings we all fly We need each other now As we're stubborn, brash and naïve With strength in numbers a flaw in tenacity As the world begins to run away I'll try to do all the things that you need of me As the world begins to run away I'll do all the things that you need of me

She said I can't help feeling alone In this small, crowded room Can anybody turn the lights off? He said the numb from the cold keeps me whole The sun's to bright out at noon Can anybody turn the lights off? When we say our goodbyes Knowing something's not right We're at the station the last trains gone by Back to the maze of my mind Missing all the road signs And wishing retrospect wouldn't plague me this way Juggle all the maybes Hope anxiety will change things Recognizing all your antics Dropping lifelines from your deep blue pickup Wondering where do we go? Consult the comforts of your mementos Mind the thief in the night Is it the truth or just an echo? Of the people we are You've had the same face all week They say that knowing is half the battle But for our case it's everything Molding life through rumor mill From the tongues of snakes The iron will Carries further than our humble etchings Initials on the asphalt hill Hindsight lets you know Tally the regrets stay unknown Blessed to walk a million miles From the grace of an exposed backbone Out of pain or pleasure Out of jest trying to sound clever Secrets are the walls of cities Brick to skin cements the living to the floor Proud of what we get to see Your hat-trick's crooked show And the hidden hand brings miracles For you and I to forget our troubles It's safe to say Time goes on and I have forgotten The words you say Leaves me standing here Slack jawed I'm nothing It's still the same Chasing double meanings While you're whistling Through your life And walk on by The glow of hazard lights Where do we go? Consult the comforts of your mementos Mind the thief in the night Is it the truth or just an echo? Of the people we are You've had the same face all week They say that knowing is half the battle But for our case it's everything She said I can't help feeling alone In this small, crowded room Can anybody turn the lights off?

You made break free Through the lies and deprecation Your voice spits up on me Scared to throw your fists at what you want to be I'm nothing standing for something Solo and silent why are you listening? With the vultures you're still circling Enjoy the pieces Is it senseless? The killing taking naming saints All rivers flow to sea It's never full Is it senseless? Standing on the side With my hands in my pockets Keeping score until the quarter's done Is it senseless? Praying for the day We use the heart we're given Change the game instead of burning pawns Is it senseless? Expecting paper numbers to bandage our wounds The violent feeds The peaceful make it last We're a family Take a good look at the blood Seeing is believing with our siblings The brighter lights under our sun Blazing paths color our souls Bearing truth we'll never know Shining Matthew's candle The flame for our cruel world Have patience Have faith The heart seeks what we don't see Can't handle excess pride When blue tear gas and red brick escalates Hate for hate No victory when this mind set permeates The subjects change We grow numb to the pain No patience No shame The heart knows that we don't see Let it move you on your knees Guess people we're never enemies Truly educate Do we need a reason to love a another face? The subjects change I hope we're not the same We're human Show grace Our heart aches but you won't see These walls want you to pay your debts For demons don't live in here rent free Sold my soul down wishing well To drown in the life I thought I wanted We're quick seconds on a timeline And I'm done counting Wake up to minutes desperate breathes as we slip by Tried to grasp you by the cuffs We're still to focused on our lifeless husks Misunderstood winds brought the storm outside

There's a world outside your window Swinging and a singing along Through all the freaks on the block It's called a shmuck that's me Four-eyed frog that can't speak A waste of space taking the air that you breathe I guess it's pretty easy to show your true colors When you're staring down your noses chewing others I never really thought this through But I share the world with you To everyone else I'm a drag for your prize Another wonderful life A disguise no more eyes In this chain gang stride Our faceless crimes leading one track minds Through poisoned apathetic rhythmic lines From the grave where we lie Another dance trough the night Watch it all fall apart At the next red light And the victim, the killer meets the remedy Three voices we listen we've got to find a harmony And out of the presses We're going through the factory The casts of our heartache The fruits of our misery Confusing the thinker as we linger Making mountains Carving trenches our time waster Vulnerable now we see the bone Is it worth two in the hand so you can call it your own? We're falling with the rain Slipped through the cracks but we'll grow Take it back ten years to the dime The garden choked the flowers clipped the blossoms we're snide Teaching the poets to use my pain for their rhymes It's never over we both can't quit Showed us the steps and the means we should take Shouting a shield to hide whispering it's all fake Slowly sowing more regrets For a scapegoat none the less Think you're free from the lines Tearing us to each side Watch the clock from afar Bringing us for the ride Convincing no one's worth the time Overthinking walks of life Clipped the wings of a dove Olive branch iron grasp Avenues as the crown angels shine in the black And the victim, the killer meets the remedy One thing's for sure I appreciate the honesty Out of the presses We're going through the factory The casts of our heartache The fruits of our misery Confusing the thinker as we linger Making mountains Carving trenches our time waster Casting shade with the shape of the crows As the words of the wise come to life from below We're falling with the rain Slipped through the cracks but we'll grow

Am I alive? The world is moving on while I'm dead inside A whisper cross the plains never reaches the grove A streak of sunlight fades falls pure as snow With a wonderful glow The trees with outstretched hands welcome the cold air in Your heart has froze That much I know And when God's warm spring touch awoke the ponds and lakes The birds they sang You lie asleep I try to find that place inside Where I never feel alone and your by my side What's mine is yours and that's just fine I hope it makes it through to the other side I know it's a lie I see you in my dreams almost every night You whisper in my ear, "Everything's alright." And with a touch I lie awake feeling pain inside I hope she's all right A shallow grave Hand in hand Prayers to you fall to no end And when the rain comes down asking, "Is it true?" The birds they sang I'm here with you I try to find that place inside Where I never feel alone and your by my side What's mine is yours and that's just fine I hope I make it through to the other side I'm a prisoner here on God's green Earth Without a purpose With no worth How can I stay strong when you are my strength? I can't go on I won't go on without you And it kills me People think they know my suffering I've been there don't feel guilty Don't feel guilty And the dulcet tones of ivory Saved us from my spite As a puzzle piece Brought us here for the first time A prisoner here on God's green Earth With a purpose You are my worth We'll stay strong you are my strength I'll go on And I'll go on And I'll go on I'll go on with you

3 a.m. Heart is racing At least we live upstairs Get your shoes on your old man's outside The delivery is here Most markets in the city Get bread from eighteen wheels Ours comes in tan sedans Follow the streetlight To a suit and tie called Lucky Is seen behind his stare Sometimes his smile's there at Christmas Wishing Happy New Year And in the first week of every odd month There's trash bags in the front seat Don't mind helping with the laundry Put it by the pantry Years down the line I hope I'm just as thoughtful My last years of college White knuckled from hopes that's left A final needle in the haystack Hiding in the bushes around our cul-de-sac Never met half of my family The fruit don't fall far from this tree The taste is bitter-sweet While the market still serves these southside alleys Although business is slow Time brought ash and silk soaked crimson With the smell of smoke And the keys fell down to me In an open book With my name and Lucky Follow descent through the stains of ink Black clothes the phantoms A curse or remedy Don't need a tailor These hand-me-downs were meant for me Took me down Straight through the city's scars our stomping grounds Trench coats know the sound The owls perch in the coupe With a hood for this new recruit Omertá pricked my forefinger Drip it on her picture Now set it on fire Burn this saint that holds my soul I enter alive and I will have to get out dead Bells don't ring When the shield is for a checklist And family's more than kinship bonds Cobblestone and dust between each one And Scrooge never cared for Jane Doe Until they showed him how We all learn better through models and examples Thanks to Lucky I earned my first few badges Just like your good old man Always tried to end things quickly Out of empathy and mercy In this brick and mortared Sherwood Cast iron wolves howl till the world burns Hear the people through the bolts of Robin Hood Took me down Straight through the city's scars our stomping grounds Trench coats know the sound The owls perch in the coupe With a hood for this new recruit Omertá pricked my forefinger Drip it on her picture Now set it on fire Burn this saint that holds my soul I enter alive and I will have to get out dead

Lined up another shot You blew it Waiting for an answer And you knew it Load it all inside the chamber And you blew it Stay your course hope all's forgotten But you knew it But you knew it She gave you another shot Again you blew it Let it all get in your way And you know it Load it all inside your chamber Again you blew it Find the mark in your last chapter And you know it Saying graces chains the drifter Built the walls around your sister When validations the new forgiveness An empty field makes room to grow If your to open to uproot the weeds A wishful thinking reality Nightmares breed inside the mind When leaves unfolding blur the line And nightmares breed outside the mind Your withered leaves can't find the line My nightmares bleed into my life I want you back inside my life My nightmares bleed into my life Your withered leaves can't find the line You'll never wake you'll never sleep I'll keep you here find what I seek Where will you go? What will you find? The consequence of wasting life Inside your head Deep in my land Of endless dreams of woeful dread This one repeats and it all repeats A skeleton key's what you need Hallucinate when memories twist Who can you trust? Who can I trust? It's all inside From you not I This second chance is the last you'll get It's all inside will the sunrise? When you catch on end the demise It's all inside will the sunrise? When you catch on end the demise You're catching on end your demise You're catching on end my demise

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Blankets House by the nightstand Another slow drive to the station Save me the seat beside the window Let me feel alive before it's time to go Start with the trees A blurry wasteland Free from the bones imagination Winds down "Mind the gap." says the marshal Drag my lead balloons until I give once I get home It's hopeless Some nights I feel it moving I wake up to see it staring Intentions and disappointments Leaves me shaking Tomorrow's the same You know where I'll be With heavy eyes pretending that I'm still alive Say need a miracle give me a big catastrophe I can't breathe outside of my bedsheets Now the film reel is turning slow Youth flickers black and white Beholding time as pure as gold Apologies Light the fuse free me from my fate I need a tragedy to save me Sinking floating in the fish tank I'm holding all the cards you've been dealing But there's a conscious that just keeps me from swimming I can hear you knocking On the glass Keep it coming break and shatter Take us back The castle I've been circling The water that you hold me in Bracing for the impact Welcome back To the aftermath Tomorrow's the same You know where I'll be With heavy eyes pretending that I'm still alive Say need a miracle give me a big catastrophe I can't breathe outside of my bedsheets Now the film reel is turning slow Youth flickers black and white Beholding time as pure as gold Apologies Light the fuse free me from my fate I need a tragedy to save me The misery The agony Set the tacks Tie the yarn to our calamity Finally We get to see A different sequence in the routine Where did we go? Same old block Same old town Same old show Is the cost worth the trade? We shouldn't know For another three wishes Without an audience survivor's guilt has me losing it See the names behind each number Try to keep a tally some time Down the line you'll say it's glory Rather be known as a weathered stone With lead balloons tied to each hand That's why we never feel anything That's why we never feel anything