Morning brought back robin First out over horizons Orange crested red wings ( ya I know what a robin looks like) Taking off flying together forever Feathers drifting Sun danced are casting Shadows or my reflection Or the absence of the wind They say the trees just take Still put on these old clothes My name is habitual Awake through winter solstice Ether pressing leaves in October This bark's my new T-shirt To me snow prints still say Tuesday Until green touches stone steps I hibernate inside my brain I know it's not going away Happy cold weather days (original name for EP shhh) Always hits me hard first of November Concrete house keep it together Lighthouse back inside my mind All the layers foretelling answers Calling lifeboats past bird baths Ten finger lakes flow from your sighs A chain reaction from both sides Begs the question why you let me Wait and see what comes of it Snow angels wear our jackets Wait and see what's gonna come of it Just shut your mouth for once I know it's not going away Happy cold weather days I know it's never ever going away Happy cold weather days [uh oh drum fill] Blame the hailstorms dance on your windshield I'm pushed aside Melt off handlebars froze to spokes of your bike Betting all in come back the next day Swindling hindsight rinse repeat I'm Ok Braving the tide keeps complacent Shores hushed for careless whims but I still care Sounds from seconds grieving in a conch shell Roaring into some glass If I let me I put on these old clothes My name is habitual Awake through winter solstice Ether pressing leaves in October This bark's my new T-shirt To me snow prints spells the pact if I ran away Till green touches stone steps I hibernate inside my brain

What you were saying before Before you proved that you're again a let down You said that you're sorry you empty out Filling the void till a ring's round our should be's now What you were saying before Before you found yourself in shards with the glass It's hard not to grow numb To echoed vowels nodding Back through headlights behind I always just chew on my lips When you're the shrapnel inside of my body Inside of my chest Spitting out a last favor the lines you began I know the feeling's mutual Two songbirds in hailstorms are singing Ante up empty pockets Feel relief from the words I hate you Hey let's just forget it, we've both got problems And it just sucks that mine are on my sleeves When your quick to pin them in front of my face Thinking that there's one way to be What you were saying before You proved that you're again a same let down The constant move lasts it still asks for the years now I said I was sorry for the void And our should be's now You said before you found yourself in the glass If we're getting more invisible now When I'm growing numb To the shrapnel in my chest it's cutting again Zero in on how to be me I've been learning a lot about kintsugi Trying to put our pieces together And we can make something

Dawn going astray Dawn going I guess it's hard for me to go on And looking forwards to something When I'm cursed to hitchhike Staring up from the I pitch Cross the railways a pastime In pennies on tracks a distraction with laughing When it hurts to walk under the night sky When telescopes make the stars out of of my airplanes I'm tied to parachutes just to make you smile I wanna smile inside I wanna smile just for me I'll never cut the cord and let the ghosts Pretend that they are me With the same blue worn out hoodie I might as well wear in my sleep Patsy let loose the drinks to my lips To have it all take the dive for me That's the only thing here left around me Tall empty bottles who talk like me Reflect some mantra as understanding Say you don't need them hey you got me Tossing ok's I'm fine towards old friends They never loved you hey you got me I'm still saying it's ok welcome to the family There's not much left of you, you owe me And cause that's the only thing left around me Tall empty bottles who talk like me Saying I'm not a nihilist Just need some kind of purpose (porpoise) Dawn going astray Dawn going astray I guess it's hard for me to go on And looking forwards to something.

Opened your den what's up? In your den hid your disgust Welcomed the rats to the back In the kitchen under brush Still saying I'm the one that needs you here Yeah I'm the one that needs you here The lure of the lamp and the laughter off the cracks Silhouettes made to speak Taking shape of how you act Saying I'm the one that needs you here Yeah I'm the one that needs you here It just fell off Look away Tried not to upset What's left Of the wine stains that you blame for your carpet I'm also spent Is this what you meant? Collaged pictures form a misfit portrait It's all just wrong Insist it's harmless when you want I know when to quit Call it off Even though things kept are to myself When you get back to your place at night Parallel to the thoughts you try Compelled to turn our house to feel your all right In line And sworn to stay because you're supposed to Stay because you need to And sworn to stay because you're supposed to Stay because you need to Guess that I'm the one that needs you here Yeah I'm the one that needs you here.

Making faces with the pictures of you Spinning yarn with the colors of June Is it over can you help me face the facts? Moral compass has me off the beaten path Guess I'm the one who needs to let things be One foot in your clouds decipher what you mean The other scared to move while both still try to please While both still try to please Making faces with the pictures of you Robbing thrift stores with your friends your plaid zeal It's never over I still see you in my driveway Counting fingers like you know what's even happening Guess I'm the one that needs to let things be Dropping burdens fine I'll hate to sail between Fair weather friends a lab rat's death in R&D While both still try to please Know I'm lost And I know you think I lost it Running to some timeshare I know you hold him hostage I couldn't catch the number so I answer every call Made camera frames Piercing lungs You breathe through silver screens Guess I wanna get this over with And wake up feeling better Get off the same page that's why we Fight who gets the last line I think it's kinda funny How you seem to go away With mouths in envelopes Are stamping pity party haze Guess that I'm the one that needs you here Yeah I'm the one that needs you here

I'm sorry about the cats Leaving rats and birds dead on the doormat Sent my gifts back and dubbed grave robber cause' I see myself in them In vagrant encampments we built in our shed Conditioned to not mind my breed In fights at night You spit obligations to care As I groan through days you hand me You'll care if it's you Or it's us Or it's them Or our neighbors It's them who bare our effects without having a say You just won't get ahead I lost mine to make sense It's hopeless when you say look after family Cause' I did You'll care cause Basket case so helplessly Stared in the backyard And through the trees Grounded in fence of teeth Rabbit season and chain link Claiming it was mine Do you need this? Some fix for a fix just leave my Head on the lamppost again Living all my thoughts A means to hurt yourself You just won't get ahead I lost mine to make sense It's hopeless when you say look after family Cause' I did Used to it Shoebox casket Kids of the rocks Took notice Could you change your mind for me again? Make sure to tell your dead pets Though flyers advertise my face Too gray for a name and a warm bed.

I never really fallen in love but Tonight I guess we're wondering Again alone in my room With my thoughts Just myself and a TV That knows me for me Through my headphones that let you speak Well it's not a TV It's a screen I leave off Displaying things on repeat I think we would want up till now Not a person, a place Or a thing, nor a girl Insists we should exist In several songs knowing all to well What makes me feel that Somehow I'll get better If I Share the grief with someone shouldering their own When I hear that somehow I deserve better That's more true for yourself I'll take the distance to close my eyes And see you smile The ant carries a leaf so you can walk All I see is your achievements from the bottom of my rock I've been drowned in a drop the dew that falls from growing up I missed yours and mine for holding on to What I think will help me up Miss coming back from summer And sneaking into choir then You took me to your locker And I wouldn't kiss you We both are thinking you deserve more Shake it off as we got to lunch As we sat with our friends Pretend there's nothing more Pretending every look you buried The hallways in makes me Stare at my feet and dream it was all for me Still Guess I'm calling it quits Yeah I'm calling it quits On Merriam-Webster's transcripts of beating chests Spent lifetimes writing words about you That I used in my college thesis You taught me on the school bus to first grade Broke my glasses said accidentally It's ok to misspell your first name It's ok we can erase these things I feel bad that I forgot That I didn't do anything To get put into this rut and I wonder why Yeah it's pathetic I've only had friends And stood on this same rung since fifteen Yeah it's pathetic we let that tear away What's left of what we need Of you and me Miss coming back from summer And sneaking into choir then You took me to your locker And I wouldn't kiss you We both are thinking you deserve more Shake it off as we got to lunch As we sat with our friends Pretend there's nothing more Pretending every look you buried The hallways in makes me Stare at my feet and dream it was all for me Still